Friday Flotsam


fall trees / bev cooks

Let’s get DARK for a second, shall we?

You’re like, I’m out.

I’ve debated on asking you this for w e e k s now, and I keep chickening out, because it might, I dunno, be triggery? But I keep coming back to it, and then I chicken out again because I feel like it’s just too much. But then I’m also super curious because I’m clearly demented. And it might not even be too big of a deal for you. But also, it might. In which you totally don’t have to answer. But also I hope you do.

Okay, it’s a two parter. (You know how I like a good two parter.)

Part one: What’s your biggest childhood fear? And it can be as tiny as crossing your legs in front of adults and fearing that they think you think you’re already a grownup. (<–you do hold me in your prayers, right?) Or it might be the boogeyman. What is it?

And part two: Did you carry that fear into adulthood? It might come as a shock to you that I am no longer nervous about crossing my legs in front of other human beings. Progress can be made, guys.

I feel like I’m pretty boring and cliche with my fears. I’ve ALWAYS been scared to drown. Like being forced to drown. I cannot deal with that thought. Basically being murdered in general. (told you we were getting dark!)

But INSECTS. No. Anything that flies, walks, breathes, is tiny and shiny and black – NO.CANNOT. It is painful for humans to be around me when a bug is present. I scream, screech, lose conscious, pass away and am no longer.

I guess being murdered by insects would be the end all. I’m going to barf now.

Tell me yours! Only if you want. No presh.

You’re like, why don’t we start with not saying presh.

leaves and boots / bev cooks

Remind me, what mascara do you use again?

I just ran out this week, so I’m headed out today to get something new. I’ve been a faithful Bad Gal Bang user for a while, but switched to Thrive to change it up. And now I’m out of both, and want something fabulous and dramatic and perfect. I want my lashes WAVING HELLO TO THE NORTH POLE.

What chew gawt?

snowy leaves / bev cooks

BOOK FRONT: Finished Ask Again, Yes last night!

UGH. It was beautiful. I did love it. I feel like it just wrapped up a little too quickly at the end, but so many books do that, so I wasn’t overly peeved.

Also, I want to know specifically how much Brian left everyone! It’s those little untold details that make me crazy. Overall, it’s pretty powerful. I love books that span the decades and show how time does in fact soften you. Even in intense drama. Eventually parts of us mellow. I won’t say anything else, in case you’ve not read it.


Starting The Broken Girls tonight. Can.not.wait.

PODCAST FRONT: Ummmm are you guys listening to Dolly Parton’s America? It’s sooooooooooooo good. Embarrassingly, I’ve never really known that much about Dolly, besides the obvious. Jolene, I Will Always Love You, Nine to Five and well, her girls. But this podcast is incredible. And we’re only three episodes in. (yeah, Aaron’s listening with me <he actually suggested it!> and absolutely loves it) I highly recommend. Ugh, the story of her walking into Porter Wagoner’s office and saying, “Sit down,” and singing I Will Always Love You. WHAT? I love that. Had no idea that was the story behind the song. Dolly wins.

MUSIC FRONT: PIANO. I’m just giddy at our shared love over this instrument. Look at all of you listening to Debussy! Noiiiiice. (<–sorry)

snowy pumpkins / bev cooks

So I filmed a couple of episodes with Prairie Fresh pork last month, and they’re both right here if you want to see them! Super fun. I appreciate all the watchers and commenters and sharererrerers. THANK YOU.

Also, we still need to throw our squirrel-mangled pumpkins away. I’ll ask Aaron to do that.

fall trees / bev cooks

Weekend plans?

My girl Ashlee (the one I always talk about who reads all the books with me but is never on social media and hates being put on social medial so clearly I had to post a video of her dancing to “I Want to Get Freaky with You” while we were camping a few weeks ago to Instagram Stories and I feel like she’ll never forgive me but it was so worth it – her!) has a birthday tomorrow. “HAS A BIRTHDAY” tomorrow. She’s not five. She’s a grown woman. So we’re brunching and wine crawling and pedicuring. CURING OUR FEET. I’ve never actually thought about that word. Don’t get cocky, pedicure word inventor person.

Mascara! Go.

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24 Responses to Friday Flotsam

  1. tj November 8, 2019 at 8:26 am #
    Essence Lash Princess (don't judge the name) it's like $5 on Amazon and is pretty awesome! Cheap enough to try - really!
    • Jenn November 9, 2019 at 10:35 am #
      I agree .:. Essence lash princess . Black with teal colored writing , found at Ulta or amazon for $5... will change your life forever . I saw a post about it on the today show over the summer and it’s all I buy. Trust us !
  2. jenrenee November 8, 2019 at 9:04 am #
    Childhood fear: sleeping in the dark. Yeah, over it. I need it dark! Adult fear: alligators/crocodiles- First of all, they are totally dinosaurs and should not be here anymore! They are way too predatorial to be living alongside humans! They can swim fast in the water AND run fast on land! And if they catch you they drag you back to the water and drown you before they eat you. NO! A few live in our neighborhood pond and people are like oh, they are so pretty and majestic, we must protect them…NO! I obviously have strong feelings about this...
  3. Mountaincat November 8, 2019 at 9:41 am #
    Childhood fear - being drafted! (pretty deep for a 5-year old girl)
  4. Nancy November 8, 2019 at 10:11 am #
    Childhood fear: being buried alive. Is that dark enough for you? I don't think about it much as an adult but when Ashley Judd's character was buried alive in that movie, Double Jeopardy, I thought I was going to lose it. So let's just say if it's brought to the forefront of my mind like this movie did, I am forced to think about it and DO.NOT.LIKE.IT! I use 100% Pure mascara and like it a lot. It's pricey but all natural which is important to me. That is all.
  5. Crystal Vaughan November 8, 2019 at 10:19 am #
    As a child, I had an intense INTENSE fear of my house burning down during the night. Too much Unsolved Mysteries and Rescue 911, I think. I mean, it was almost a phobia. I've outgrown that, thankfully, though my childhood fear of snakes has followed me to adulthood. Just nope to those creepy crawlies! Yeuch! I read The Broken Girls a few months ago and it was such a good book. I still think of the characters from time to time.
    • Morgan November 8, 2019 at 1:25 pm #
      Yes, same! Thanks a lot, Unsolved Mysteries...
  6. Angelique November 8, 2019 at 10:29 am #
    For mascara I used to use all of the Diors but now I am using Armani Eyes to Kill and really liking it. After using the same thing for a few years I tend to change it up and start the whole process over again. Also, The Broken Girls was great! Loved it. And If you like spooky books you should read House of Leaves.
  7. Erin Winter November 8, 2019 at 11:48 am #
    My both childhood and (still) adult fear is stairs. I can't go down any stairs without thinking that I am in fact going to fall down I have to really be conscious of what I am doing at all times when on stairs. My mom used to run down the escalators in malls when I was a kid just to terrorize me. It has never been confessed, but I have two older brothers and I am convinced they threw me down some stairs when I was a baby and this is the PTSD I must deal with the rest of my life. Fan of Benefit 'They're Real' and gooooooddd ol' Mabyline Great Lash!
  8. Tobi November 8, 2019 at 1:04 pm #
    As a child I was terrified of the dark, and I still am to a certain extent. I always have a light on - usually the overhead stove light - when I'm sleeping. On the mascara front, I've tried a ton of brands and my hands down favorite is Urban Decay Perversion. I've also gotten a few ladies hooked on it, including my picky mom!
  9. Toni November 8, 2019 at 1:52 pm #
    When I was a child, we lived close to Kelly AFB in San Antonio, TX...I was always afraid that an airplane was going to crash into our house. Also, as a child I saw a movie in which the bottom of an elevator fell out...I always CLUNG to the elevator railings, even as an adult.
  10. Emily H November 8, 2019 at 2:42 pm #
    Lashtopia by BareMinerals. They sell it at Ulta and it gives you volume/length/all of the good stuff you want. I used to switch mascaras all the time and this is the only one that I've used for years because it checks all the boxes!
  11. Emily H November 8, 2019 at 2:46 pm #
    Also - had to think about this one for a minute, but my childhood fear was eating a spider in my sleep. I think my older sister learned about people eating spiders in their sleep and not knowing it (like, they crawl on your face and into your open mouth while you snore and then you eat it and don't even wake up, wtf) and told me about it to scare me. I feel like it's a real fact that's out there somewhere, but i cannot handle it even to this day. I actually still think about it a lot. (Someone please tell me this is actually an old wives tale or something and not a real thing)
    • Kellie November 12, 2019 at 12:28 pm #
      Ok first, open curtains on a window at night with lights on in the house 😳😳👀 people outside in the dark can SEE you but you can’t see them!!!! Terrifying 😬 and of course spiders 🕷 can’t deal AT ALL and they MUST be killed and I must SEE the dead spider 🕷 so I know it’s not still wandering around in the house....or on night in my sleep
  12. Brigitte November 8, 2019 at 8:47 pm #
    Oh my gosh! I’ll get dark. I was afraid of getting shot. Who knows where that came from all of five years old living in a typical small town. Later in life turned to fear of fires uugh! Anyway I use Marc Jacobs Velvet Noir Major Volume Mascara. Game changer. Pricey. Lashes for dayyyys.....
  13. Kelly @ Turned up to 11 November 9, 2019 at 9:31 am #
    Ok. Childhood fears... Being abducted. I mean that was the biggest. Sure there was the dark and bumps in the night and bugs that fly or hop, but being taken was a huge fear. And as a kid it was by a stranger, as a teen I watched Fire In The Sky and suddenly aliens from other world's were the next fear. I legit still am uncomfortable with alien movies, well minus comedy ones. The alien has to look like the ones from XFiles or you know huge white heads, and big black eyes. Independence Day, Men in Black no problem.... Maybe I just need Will Smith to even it out. I'm better now (30 years later) but that stuff still gives me the Willies!!! Fire In The Sky just really freaked me out! Haha. So yeah... So fears stick but at least now I am more curious than terrified by the thought of life beyond Earth. 😂😉
  14. Kristi November 9, 2019 at 9:59 am #
    My fear in childhood was a runaway car (my mom and dad were rogue and left us in hot and or running cars all the time). I’d fear it running off the road or cliff and that has transcended into adulthood with my car running into sinkholes, rushing water, cliffs or hills. And I live in the mountains so... 😟
  15. Katie November 9, 2019 at 2:28 pm #
    Childhood fear is of bugs! Especially flying, buzzing bugs. Still scared as an adult. THE BEST MASCARA is “Better Than Sex” by Too Faced. Hands down.
    • Theresa December 13, 2019 at 12:48 am #
      Best mascara is Hourglass Caution
  16. Lindsey November 9, 2019 at 5:04 pm #
    Mile High Club mascara by Wander Beauty. Lengthens & separates!
  17. Meredith November 9, 2019 at 6:08 pm #
    I was afraid of Michael Jackson from the Thriller video being under my bed at night 🤷🏼‍♀️ Also driving over bridges. Seriously was petrified and had to close my eyes and bury my frightened head in my hands. I have lash extensions so I don’t put mascara on my upper lashes and recently quit putting mascara on my bottom lashes because I think it makes me look younger(???) I’ll just keep telling myself that anyway 😆😆
  18. Liz P November 9, 2019 at 10:37 pm #
    I am dedicated to the volume express “The Falsies” mascara from Maybelline. It’s affordable, makes my lashes looks va-voom, and stays in place. I adore it.
  19. Rayna November 11, 2019 at 9:56 am #
    Thank you for mentioning Dolly Parton's America! I listened to the available episodes over the weekend... WOW. So emotional and powerful. I'd suggest it to anyone!
  20. Joanna November 12, 2019 at 12:41 pm #
    I was afraid of my parents dying. Suuuuper dark. And in reality, it was likely undiagnosed anxiety since I would kind of obsess about it. I still fear people in my life dying. I also had a puke phobia (fear of puking myself) which is still there (although not as bad as it once was). Being a kid is weird.

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